Reddit mentions of I Want to Change My Life: How to Overcome Anxiety, Depression and Addiction

Same. And if you're anything like me, at 7 years it gets to a scary dangerous point. I'm still struggling but I've been to rehab this past year and now I'm in a better place after an 8 year adderall addiction. First: you need a support system. Family, friends, just someone who will not judge you that you can be totally honest with about your addiction. Sometimes it helps to have a good therapist but I never stuck with one for very long. I've been to NA meetings and they are not for me. I do recommend rehab, if anything to just get 30 days straight clean and clear your head. Set some goals and try to figure yourself out while you're there. Once the drugs were gone for a couple weeks I realized I had no idea who I was. I still have no idea what to do with myself sometimes because I really made myself believe I needed Adderall to get anything done. If you can get a solid couple of weeks clean, I will tell you it does get easier. The first few weeks are the hardest. It's also hard when you relapse. Besides rehab, I also highly recommend this book: I Want to Change My Life: How to Overcome Anxiety, Depression and Addiction https://www.amazon.com/dp/1897572239/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_p4XeAbDJWYGWC. I hate therapy. This book is my therapist. It preaches mindfulness and helps you really understand what's going on when you can't stop taking more pills. If you're hesitant about rehab, you have to make a hard decision. This drug took 7 years of your life from you. Are you going to keep giving into it, or are you going to take your life back? Good luck to you and feel free to PM me if you need support. Adderall is one hell of a drug.

It's funny that you're worried about losing your friends when you admit you're actually smoking alone 10x a day...take time for that to set in. You'll find new friends! Your current friends are only your friends because you choose to only associate with stoners. If you're just worried about losing friends and not taking care of yourself, you're going to keep feeling (more) shitty and encounter bigger life issues as you get older. Lots of my real friends started families and had children, while I just laughed and said "why have a kid when you can have a boat!" The "friends" I associated through weed are NOT moving forward, stuck in their ways, and I now find myself sorta laughing at them for their stupid/non-coherent stoner talk. I used to smoke just as much, if not more, and 90% of the time by myself. You likely have some anxiety/depression issues you should address with a Mindfulness-Based Cognitive Therapist (MBCT). You should also explore meditation and find the true, inner you...he is waiting to come out if you're willing to allow him :) Here's a book you should check out! https://www.amazon.com/Want-Change-Life-Depression-Addiction/dp/1897572239

First of all I would strongly suggest giving the Paxil a try - it may help stabilize your emotions. I know going on a new medication can be scary, but they can really help give you a little extra boost to get your life back together. My mom recently bought me this book and I think it looks very useful. I don't have the same symptoms that you do, but I do yoga to relax, I practice deep breathing/meditation, and I am talking to a therapist right now about how to manage symptoms so I can let things go and bring back some normalcy to my life. Talk to someone supportive, and challenge yourself to find coping mechanisms that work for you. Best wishes :) You may also find better advice in r/selfhelp

I Want to Change My Life

Author did a study of many, many forms of meditation from the world over and broke it down to the common elements.

His example that I heard was "If one form tells you to put your left hand over your right, and another tells you to put your right hand over your left, then obviously it doesn't matter which you do, so I left it out."

He breaks it down to, if I recall, 5 simple things, and this is how I learned to meditate and have for the last 4 years.