Reddit mentions of Mind-Body Workbook for Anxiety: Effective Tools for Overcoming Panic, Fear, and Worry (New Harbinger Self-help Workbook)

I agree with /u/satelliteminds, the anxiety is going to get in your way. I can't speak to the cause but I can speak to it being a roadblock to your body relaxing and associating penetration with being painless.

Don't freak out, I too went on google when I was first dx'd the forums aren't as positive as this one imo. Remember, people who are cured and happy don't have the same drive to post things that those activity suffering are so the scales of YAY and OW are jilted.

The pinching you described was one of my symptoms when penetrated. I had complex vaginismus (I had two other conditions associated with it).

I do think you have a case of vaginismus and I know for sure that cases vary greatly!

There was an earlier post from someone who cured herself, you should read it.

I am a woman of science with a big sense of spirit, so for me I needed physical therapy (PT), dialators and somatic therapy. I also believe you should always be under the supervision of a professional. FOR ME (everyone and every vagina is different) I would clench my pelvic floor muscles (which I didn't even know how to control at the time consciously) when my guard went up.

Some people grit their teeth, some squint their eyes, some make tight fists...I clenched my vagina. The joys. I never felt safe or stable growing up and my somatic therapist helped me with that, I am sure other kinds of therapy can help with that too - my pelvis is crooked so my muscle dysfunction involved my skeleton which made me predisposed. My PT helped with that immensely.

But that's me - who cares, this is about you. If you CANNOT afford even a diagnosis and you are strapped enough that you can't afford one session with a therapist then it is what it is.

This set is affordable
https://www.vuvatech.com/products/non-magnetic-full-dilator-set?gclid=CjwKCAjwypjVBRANEiwAJAxlIp0MwCyhWuZJCzh-C-8FtE1AOpEOWTVwsPzb-swddaqQNvAXhiH9zBoCGUsQAvD_BwE

Use slippery stuff water based gel lube (no alcohol).

Take warm baths. Go to youtube and look up breathing techniques, guided meditation, whatever works for you to break the "Penetration = Pain" cycle.

Your vajj is designed for this. You can do it.

EDIT: Check this out, it's only 9.99 on the kindle... https://www.amazon.com/Mind-Body-Workbook-Anxiety-Effective-Overcoming-ebook/dp/B00N3FQF94/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=&dpID=5150kEfdrML&preST=_SX342_QL70_&dpSrc=detail