Reddit mentions: The best clergy books

That's quite a story. Here's one that comes from the exact opposite angle (excerpted from the outstanding book From Apostle to Apostate: The Story of the Clergy Project), from a former Baptist minister, explaining the event that pushed him from the agnosticism he'd already reached into outright atheism:

> I realized that everything the Church had taught me about its conflicting versions of god was grounded in a fear-based distortion. I evolved into an agnostic. My depression subsided. Self-love replaced loathing. Self-reliance replaced fear. A peace that the Church could not give filled my being. [...] I remained an agnostic, willing to accept the possible existence of "something more" that most people classified as god. Atheist seemed too absolute, close-minded even. I was still operating under old distortions such as, "Atheists believe in nothing," and "There are no atheists in foxholes." Then, I found myself in a "foxhole."

> While on a 16-mile hike at Point Reyes National Seashore, north of San Francisco, the encroaching tide trapped me on a clifflined strand of remote beach. Poor planning and bad directions from locals had landed me in a do-or-die situation. I had to scale the 100-foot rock face, or hope that I survived the night's high tide that would swallow the beach. If the waves crashing against the rocks didn't kill me, hypothermia would.

> I climbed. It was easy--vertical but with plenty of eroded nooks and crannies to grip. Twenty feet from the top, sandy soil and grasses began to cover the smooth rock. The soil layer gave way. My feet dropped. I slid. I threw my chest against the cliff and grasped for anything as my fall accelerated. I jammed my forearm into a hole in the rock and dangled. As I hung from the cliff, my past didn't flash before my eyes. The fear pulsing through my veins didn't drive me to prayer. There were no angels to rescue me. No afterlife would embrace me after the coming fall. I had only my body and this life. Any vestiges of faith in a "something more" crashed against the the rusty yellow boulders below. I grabbed the rock. I climbed. I slid. I tried again, until I made it to the top an atheist.

It sounds to me like you don't want Paganism to have a Fascism problem so you're choosing to ignore reality & minimize evidence.

The SPLC seems to think Paganism has a bit of a Fascism problem: https://www.splcenter.org/fighting-hate/extremist-files/ideology/neo-volkisch

And here's the Asatru Folk Assembly guide to rituals. They are, without a doubt, practicing pagans: https://www.amazon.com/Asatru-Book-Blotar-Rituals-Assembly/dp/1466312653

We can't fix white supremacy by ignoring its roots & expressions. You can't root out white supremacists in a community if you can't first admit that you have a lot of white supremacists in your community.