Reddit mentions of Emmanuel's Book: A Manual for Living Comfortably in the Cosmos

This happened to me in College, and sways from crazy anxiety for years, to peace for a few years, to atheism and just generally depressed about it, back to peace and hope, to Atheism... it is never stable for me.

For me the only way I can cope with Death when I'm not feeling crazy Atheist is to find real tangible evidence of, well, some kind of existence after. (Good luck, I know.) My favorite books helping with my own personal death related anxiety are

Old Souls Dude's been studying "past lives" his whole life. Interesting to say the least, and not preachy. More objective.

Emmanuel's Guide to the Cosmos Note - there is nothing scientific about this book at all - however if there does happen to be some kind of soul-system, this one makes the most sense to me personally.

I also enjoy the Tibetian book of living and dying and reading up on weird shit the Llamas can do / have done.

Reading up on Near Death Experience can be cool, too. I know a lot of people believe NDE's are chemically induced and that is certainly viable, but I've read a couple accounts that just... ring kind of true to me, idk. You'll have to decide for yourself.

All the best.