Reddit mentions of Think or Sink: The One Choice That Changes Everything

:( I can see that this is very important to you. It is not fun to live in worry that everyone you love and cherish can turn on you in an instant for something you did a long time ago.

I would suggest reading the book called "Think or Sink: The One Choice That Changes Everything" by Gina Mollicone-Long. It discusses actively choosing the way you feel through the day. I believe she says that when we do not choose the way we feel, we revert back to our base level on thinking.

Although her phrasing may not be completely relatable, there is a kernal of wisdom to be found here. If someone decides to focus on the negative aspects of their life, which may be very daunting, then this person will tend to think negatively over all. Focus on what you are doing well and what you can do better, then take action.

Another thing that you can try immediately is to start a private journal. All you need is a notebook and you're set. Choose a time in the day to write everything that is on your mind and anything else you want. Try to be as open as possible because this is your space and time to vent everything you're holding in. For me, it helps to see all the issues I'm facing on paper and writing it down forces me to think about it rather than pushing these thoughts back down. This has helped me a lot with anxiety in the past, and it is a great way to monitor your mental health and thinking patterns.

I've had similar anxieities as well and these tendencies went on for years. Earlier this year I decided enough was enough and went to my school counselor and my doctor. Just talking about what was on my mind helped tremendously. If this mental anguish is so unbearable, I implore that you seek some form of help. Whether it be a counselor, a psychologist, your family doctor, or a close family member, they will all understand what you are going through and try their best to help.

You don't have to, and shouldn't, suffer through this on your own. Reaching out to reddit was a good first step toward a solution, but it is up to you to carry this momentum into making a change in your life.

Good luck!