(Part 2) Best products from r/AMA

I could have swore I replied to this, but I guess my comment got lost because I keep like, fifty fucking tabs open at a time. My bad.

ahem Anyway, it's hard for me to say if my taste differs much from an NT's sense of taste. I do feel like I taste things with more complexity(?), but I don't have much to compare it to. I can say that I started learning to cook and bake after reading and memorizing large portions of [The Professional Chef] (http://www.amazon.com/Professional-Chef-Culinary-Institute-America/dp/0470421355) and people love my food. And I taste-test it throughout the cooking process to make sure it's good, so apparently there's nothing wrong with my sense of taste. Maillard is one of my favorite words.

I hate the taste of liquor in things. I like alcoholic drinks where the taste of alcohol is completely disguised.

My favorite food is ice cream. My least favorite food is caviar.

I'm picky about the textures of foods, and I can't eat anything that smells bad (like kimchi). My sister-in-law makes this Filipino soup with tamarind and cellophane noodles that absolutely disgusts me. The smell of it drives me from the house. (Don't tell her I said that.)

I have a very strong sense of smell, which I think makes my sense of taste stronger than the average bear, but I'm not sure. I do know that certain smells which bother other people (skunk, gasoline, burning rubber, a catalytic converter) do not bother me at all. I actually think they smell pretty good. Meanwhile, some things which people think smell good (like certain flowers and perfumes) smell awful to me. I CANNOT go near a Bath and Body Works store.

I love to try cooking new and exotic things, but I personally have very simple tastes. I could happily live the rest of my life taking in nothing but coffee with milk and sugar, iced sweet tea, iced water with lemon, plain turkey sandwiches on white, and Campbell's chicken noodle or tomato soup.

Cilantro tastes like cilantro to me. Not soap. :D

You are making a good start!

One tip I might have for you is quality over quantity. You may not have all the time in the world to produce your videos.

(about the linked video) You might want to look into adjusting the audio levels (your voice needs to be louder than the game audio). When you get the chance buy a better microphone, (It will help tremendously in production quality).

I would recommend (http://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B002VA464S). I have this mic and would definitely recommend - It's got good value for audio quality.

I hope I haven't come off as too preachy but I do like to help out people who I see trying to do their best in what they enjoy.

I wish you good luck in such a saturated market.

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I don't know what kinds of activities you do but I make jewelry, sew, and do old school photography methods that require a decent amount of equipment and I brought everything but my sewing machine (which I only left with my mom because I didn't think I'd be near an electrical outlet enough to justify bringing it lol), and gog has a suitcase of books we affectionately called the "library". So all of our hobbies, plus our clothes, cooking equiptment, food (perishable in a cooler and nonperishable in a sturdy canvas bag), 8 gallons of water, our bed, and other random stuff I'm neglecting to think of fit pretty comfortably in the caravan. I'd be happy to send you photos of our setup to give you a better sense of it if you want.
also, if you're thinking of going in a car you should check out things like this... http://www.amazon.com/Car-Travel-Inflatable-Mattress-Parent-child/dp/B00AUP7O1I
someone showed it to me awhile back and I thought it was kind of brilliant.
Also, roadtrippers.com is a great way to find things to see or do. ( For those of you looking at all my replies I swear I don't work for roadtrippers.com, I only keep mentioning it because I have found the app and the website to be super useful) Or google "weird things to see in (or along) insert town or highway here"

>I was curious, do you attempt to keep in touch with any of your students? It seems that you've had a pretty profound impact on more than a few lives you must be curious about if your work is paying off.

Yes. After I left teaching, over the years, Facebook has been a wonderful boon.

It used to be that teachers sent their students off into the world and then....

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.... and then nothing. Never heard from them again. Teachers were left to wonder what became of their students, unless the students reached out or the teachers reached out.

However, over the years, I've had a number of my former students add me on Facebook.

The most awesome example I can think of is someone I taught tenth grade Biology to, who then added me on Facebook, then asked me where she could volunteer for research credit. She's now a student at a local community college, and I mentor her research in our chronic disease laboratory. So I get to continue working with her and watching her grow as a learner. Awesome.

For my blog, I recently did some research and tried to track down a number of my old students. I used Facebook, Google, and the county's jail records to try to figure out what happened to them, and compare it to how they said they wanted to change the world when they were in 10th grade.

Here are some links to their stories, if you're interested:

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Conclusion

>Also, I haven't finished the book so if this is answered further in my new question is: What was the last book you finished and really enjoyed?

Ooh, that's a tough one. Unfortunately, most of the reading I do these days is strictly professional, so it can be tough.

I'd say 'The Gift of Fear' by Gavin de Becker. I reference it a lot here on Reddit. Really good for getting an idea of other people's motivations and learning to trust your gut.

Great! Yeah, The Mind Illuminated is definitely one of my favorite meditation manuals. Well worth it. Thanissaro Bhikkhu, the abbot of Metta Forest Monastery in southern California, has a lot of great dhamma talks online. They have a lot of their publications available online, along with With Each and Every Breath (Thanissaro Bhikkhu's intro to meditation book). They'll also mail you physical copies for free, just mail an order form.

As for retreats, Metta Forest Monastery allows for overnight visits free of charge in their guest house (there's about a 2-3 month wait though). I've really enjoyed my time staying there, there's a lot of good time to practice and you're usually able to ask Thanissaro Bhikkhu questions during the evening Q and A.

There's also Birken in Canada. They have a really nice set up and its a great place to focus on the practice. They have a beginner retreat usually in the middle of July.

Both of those monasteries don't offer too much instruction. Being new to meditation, it may be helpful to start out with a more structured retreat. I know of some places in Thailand, let me know if that interests you. There's also the Goenka Vipassana retreat centers. They have a very structured course (free of charge as well) and is really great for beginners. They also have centers all over the US, usually within a reasonable distance and they help coordinate ride sharing. With that said, I have some personal issues with some things regarding that particular tradition, how things are taught, and what-not (I can go into further detail if you want), but my main point of advice going into them is to not close yourself off to only what is taught at those retreats.

Those are really the only retreat centers I have experience with in the states, but I can send over a bunch of links to other places you can look into as well. Where are you located more or less?

Sorry for the delay! Here comes a long response.

> How did you become an exchange student? What did you do? Was it with a school or was it an external thing?

While taking Japanese in high school, my teacher told us about Rotary International. They do all kinds of charitable work and whatnot, and one of the things they do is sponsor students for foreign exchange. Here's a link to find your nearest club. Of course my parents helped me pay for it, but the cost was relatively low. Around $3k if I remember correctly, for a whole year of living abroad with a host family and going to school over there. I was 17 at the time. Highly recommend checking it out.

> Will 100 words a day be enough to be fluent in a year?

If by "100 words a day", you mean memorizing 100 words a day, then no, of course not. Memorizing vocab is important, obviously--and I'd recommend starting with something like this: 1000 most common Japanese words.--but you'll hit a wall very quickly if that's your only source of study.

If you just want to speak 100 words a day that you already know, then yes, that's an awesome place to start. The secret to learning languages is to speak the words that you know every day, as often as possible. I recommend finding someone to talk to, and there are a million websites out there to help you out with that. Check out /r/languagelearning and /r/Japanese, if you haven't already.

> How is memory retention after not being exposed to Japanese after a month?

Hard to say; that's a pretty subjective question. My memory retention after a month was phenomenal; now after 10+ years, not so much. But again, that's going to change with the individual, how much exposure he had previously, etc etc. Type of exposure is important too, I think. After I lived in Japan for 11 months, for example, my memory retention was obviously much better than it would have been after taking four years of high school Japanese and then never looking at another hiragana after graduation.

> How much do you think emotion affects learning? How much do you think desire affects learning, as opposed to no desire at all?

These are interesting questions, and I'm not sure I'll be able to get as deep into answering them as I might if we were talking face to face. Learning is a fascinating topic--check out The Art of Learning by Josh Waitzkin--and one's capacity for learning can be affected by all sorts of things.

To address your question specifically, both desire and emotion can affect learning, and it's my opinion that emotion plays a larger part in that effect.

For example, take a student who hates going to school and doesn't want to learn a goddamned thing. That student still recognizes the importance of getting his diploma, so he puts his nose to the grindstone, sits through his awful classes, and he graduates.

On the flip side, a student who wants nothing more than to graduate with a 4.0 might have a hard time paying attention if he's constantly distracted because he is depressed, anxious, angry or melancholic.

See the difference? Our brains will take in information and force us to learn things whether we want it to or not. But if our mental energy is being sapped by our negative emotions, that job becomes a lot more difficult. What you are really referring to here is focus. If you can get around a lack of desire and your conflicting negative emotions and find a place of focus, you'll learn.

(On that note, if lack of focus is an issue for you, start meditating--check out headspace. They have a fantastic app that will give you 10 free 10-minute sessions. I use the app all the time and have cycled the 10 free sessions probably 100 times. No need to buy the premium version to reap the benefits. Just do one session at night before bed. We can definitely get more into the other benefits of meditating if you're ever interested.)

Dude, I read your history and I think you're a god. I totally respect that you're self-taught and is money driven. I need your advice.

I have a 7 yo daughter who loves chemistry experiments. She and her private tutor has been doing science projects for a year due to the miracle of homeschooling. Can you tell me what kind of chem experiments she can do without blowing up our house?

She doesn't understand the specifics yet so it's all about having fun. She doesn't memorize the periodic table or anything like that. But if we keep up this pace, I think she'll start delving deeper into the whys by next year. She's already at least a year or two ahead in math.

My daughter also has a private tech teacher. She learns kiddie coding with Scratch and something called Microbit. What do you think is the next best thing in kiddie tech that's in line with AI? Is learning about VR useful? Is robotics yesterday's news? Should she be able to remotely hack a Tesla fob like those two dudes in the UK by the time she's 14?

Btw, she wants to ask Santa for a drone this Christmas. What do you think of this one? https://www.amazon.com/Holy-Stone-Quadcopter-Headless-Voltage/dp/B01IMR6BLO/ref=sr_1_1_sspa?s=toys-and-games&ie=UTF8&qid=1540442655&sr=1-1-spons&keywords=holy+stone+u818a+drone&psc=1

My daughter was inspired by her teacher's focus on STEM. Also, her dad blew up a chemistry lab when he was in high school and he's now a science guy. Oh, and youtube. She's not a savant or a genius, but she seems to be more drawn to science vs. art. (Thank god and knock on wood!) I don't think she's MIT or CalTech bound, but she'll eventually be able to skip a grade or two.

Please give me your opinions about academics, life, peers, etc. Pretty much everything except my terrible grammar (but perfect spelling!). Any products, classes, youtube, or life skills you can recommend? I know I'm rambling, but it's b/c I want to know everything!

>Does any of this sound familiar?

YES. 100% yes this is incredibly familiar and reminds me of my experience before diagnosis. You shouldn't be in this much pain and you definitely shouldn't have to suffer in silence. Check out [this website] (https://www.vitalhealth.com/conditions-treated/pelvic-pain-conditions/endometriosis/) and look at all of the pelvic conditions listed. Based on what you wrote, you may have one or more of these conditions.

>Why doesn’t it bother me any other time?

It only bothers you at the time of your period because the endometrial tissue that has grown outside of your uterus is trying to "shed" like the lining of the uterus does during menstruation. However, it has nowhere to go since it's not in your uterus. This causes severe pain and sometimes bleeding and scarring on whatever the tissue touches- whether it be your uterus, colon, or bladder. This could explain your pain with peeing, especially. I have the exact same problem to this day- Azo occasionally gives me relief.

>Is there anything you do to curb the pain?

So. Many. Things. And despite everything I do, it sometimes still hurts. I made a list in r/endometriosis of my ultimate pain help list. I'll link it here.

In this post, I barely mentioned birth control as a strategy to help pain. If you aren't already on birth control, I highly recommend it. It can completely solve the problem for a lot of people, or at least rid you of the pain. There are many different types though, so talk to your doctor to find what's right for you.

In this post I also mention the Livia. Now, after research, I have discovered that it's the same as any other TENS unit, just more portable. If you don't want to shell out a crap ton of money for a portable one, Amazon has a great one for only $25 [here.] (https://www.amazon.com/HealthmateForever-Electronic-Arthritis-Inflammation-No-USD723178S/dp/B00O7CM12W/ref=sr_1_4_s_it?s=hpc&ie=UTF8&qid=1517610747&sr=1-4&keywords=tens+unit) You can also buy bigger electrodes to deal with the pain. You can find lots of those on amazon.

If you have looked at Vital Health and everything else and think this is you, I recommend going to a specialist if you can afford it. Surgery will be a waste if it isn't a wide excision surgery; that's why my first surgery didn't work and only worsened my pain. Most doctors just use a laser to get rid of what they see, but this is ineffective. Endometriosis is like an iceberg; you can only see a little bit on the outside, but there's a lot more hiding underneath the surface. That's why only a select few surgeons are qualified to do this procedure. You can find a list of surgeons that do this procedure on r/endometriosis and on Nancy's Nook Facebook group.

Lastly, know this: You are not crazy. It is not "just a period." In fact, endometriosis was listed as one of the top 20 most painful conditions according to the NIH. Many people will not be understanding, but you'll be shocked to find out that those who do understand REALLY understand and will help you through this entire journey. I promise you it WILL get better. You have a lot of options to pursue before you should ever even consider giving up. Come join r/endometriosis and we will help you throughout this entire journey. You can see many posts there from people going through the same thing you are.

I wish you the best with your journey! If you have any questions or concerns or if this information was too much at once and you need clarification, do not hesitate to pm me. :) You are so strong for suffering in silence this long, but you shouldn't have to suffer like that anymore. Stay strong! It will help a lot.

Love Alan Moore. I know a lot of people love or hate him. I think as a magickian and a fellow chaos magickian he is an amazing guy. Also love me some Grant Morrison. The Invisibles changed me also one of the best 2-3 comic series of all time.
Love me some Prometheus and all his work is so magickian. I am currently reading the wonderful Lance Parkin biography of him and it is even more amazing that I could have hoped. www.amazon.com/Magic-Words-Extraordinary-Life-Moore/dp/1781310777/

I have been diagnosed with BPD officially for a year now. Prior to that I was misdiagnosed with Bipolar 2. Honestly my experience with medication hasn't been great. I totally hear you about feeling like a lab rat. Currently I am on Guanfacine, which is normally an ADD/Autism med meant to curb impulsivity. I have been on anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, and anti-depressants all of which were minimally effective and had shitty side effects. However, I HAVE SEEN MARKED IMPROVEMENT since I have started a Dialectical Behavioral Therapy program. DBT is similar but different than CBT, and was specifically designed for BPD. It is essentially Buddhism meets Western psych. I CAN'T RECOMMEND IT HIGHLY ENOUGH. I went through an intensive CBT program before starting the DBT program and didn't see any results despite a lot of effort. The entire point of DBT is learning skills to manage your reactions to triggers. You can control your brain not the other way around. I linked to the wiki page about DBT in another comment, but here's kind of the run down. A PROPER DBT program will consist of two parts, group therapy and individual therapy. In group therapy you discuss and learn skills meant to help you regulate emotions, increase stress tolerance, decrease vulnerability to triggers, and improve interpersonal relationships. You use a textbook, current edition here: https://www.amazon.com/Skills-Training-Handouts-Worksheets-Second/dp/1572307811/ref=pd_lpo_sbs_14_t_0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=FY8PYY4YF8P0KGPYH603
and you work through the worksheets and diagrams as weekly "homework". Mindfulness exercises are also a part of group therapy, often in the form of a guided meditation. In individual therapy you work through problems you are facing in your life and see when/how to apply the skills you are learning in group. Focus is on how to deal with current issues and triggers rather than digging really deep into why you have BPD, so if you have co-morbid PTSD you should be ok ( although it does deal with how to apply skills to thoughts/feelings brought up by past trauma). Again, I CAN'T RECOMMEND IT ENOUGH. Also, be careful of half-ass programs. Like I said a proper program with have both Group and Individual therapy. Often, there are Group programs floating around on their own, which are more support groups than skills training. Do your research on a the place providing the therapy before diving in to ensure it is the full skills training. I also recommend this book: https://www.amazon.com/Buddha-Borderline-Recovery-Personality-Dialectical/dp/157224710X it was very inspiring.

Background: I am teaching CS 2200 (Systems & Networks) for the first time this spring. Instead of doing the traditional "Lecture" format class (Sage on the stage) I am using Team Based Learning.

The basic idea is that students are assigned readings for a module, and on the first day of the module they participate in both an individual, and a team based "Readiness Assessment Protocol" to judge their readiness to begin the module. This is basically a multiple-choice based reading test, that the students do individually, and then repeat as a team. The students who did not do the reading (or have trouble learning from a book) do not score as well as those who are prepared, but during the team based test, the entire team discusses the questions and answers, and hopefully the students who do not know the correct answers will learn what they are, and why they are the correct answers. [This is the first bit of team based learning.]

After the RAP on the first day of the module, the teams do several days of application activities, which are problem solving sessions based upon problems that capture the specific skills we want the students to learn. So instead of telling the students what they need to know (lecturing) we give them problems. If they are able to solve the problems, they must know what we want them to know, and are able to apply the knowledge.

Of course, if a significant percentage of the class gets a RAP or Application Activity question wrong, I know based upon the clicker scores, and give a very short targeted explanation as to why the correct answer was correct and the wrong answer was not correct...you can think of this as only lecturing on the topics that students are actually having problems with. (I will also answer student questions during class.)

If you want more information about TBL, you can read the two books I did: http://www.amazon.com/Getting-Started-Team-Based-Learning-Sibley/dp/1620361965/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1425692049&sr=8-1&keywords=getting+started+team+based+teaching and http://www.amazon.com/Team-Based-Learning-Transformative-College-Teaching/dp/157922086X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1425692035&sr=8-1&keywords=team+based+teaching

So, now that you know what team based learning is about, where did I learn about it and why did I decide to try it out with CS 2200?
Last semester I was part of the CETL Class of 1969 Teaching Scholars program, which focused on promoting student engagement in large classes. One of the (many) techniques they talked about was TBL. At the time, I was sitting in on Kishore's lecture of CS 2200 learning the material and seeing how he teaches it. I noticed that almost all of the learning objectives for the CS 2200 class could be measured by giving students small problems to solve that all had very specific correct answers. These types of problems are exactly what TBL specifies as the right format for the application activities, so I felt that if any class was "right" to try TBL out on, CS 2200 was it! Also, making a TBL class takes a lot of prep work. I spend easily 2-3 hours of work for every hour in class, preparing reading guides, RAP tests, application activities, and doing paperwork involved with team appeals of RAP questions. Preparing a new lecture based class also takes a lot of work. I decided that since I had to prepare to teach CS 2200 for the first time, I may as well put that work into the TBL format instead of the lecture format. (If I were to teach the class a 2nd time, it would be a lot less work the second time...but compared to a lecture based class, I think I would be doing a bit more work with all of the bookkeeping and paperwork involved.)

Now, to answer your second question, about how do I think it's going:
The first test I gave was based closely upon the format of Kishore's TEST1's from past semesters, but it was slightly harder in two places. The students in the class averaged an 78%, which is actually better than the TA's were expecting given the extra difficulty on the exam, and very much in line with the performance of students in the past "traditional lecture based" semesters. So it looks like student learning is on par with, if not better than in the normal lecture based offering of the class, and I am only doing 5% of the lecture time. [This is the difference between lecturing and teaching...you can teach by lecturing, but just because you are lecturing doesn't mean you are teaching unless the students are learning. Kishore and Bill are both excellent lecturers, and students learn a lot from them, so I believe the TBL course is performing quite well in comparison, with very little lecturing. Students are still learning, but in a different way.]

That being said: Of course most students prefer the traditional lecture format. It is familiar, and people like what is familiar. Especially in the eyes of 19-22 year olds, who have a very "black or white" world view, either something is what they think is "right" or it is "wrong". Some people do better in a lecture based class, while others do better by practicing skills, discussing the material in a group, and learning from their peers. Team Based Learning requires more engagement from students, challenges them with required readings and problems they need to learn how to solve on their own, and is novel and sometimes scary when first introduced. [Incidentally, the two books I linked to above have multiple chapters about how initial reactions to TBL from students will be negative, and predicted almost all of the complaints and criticisms that were raised.] For example, the entire first week of class was an example of how TBL actually worked, giving students a chance to get used to the system (or change their registration!) before we actually started the CS 2200 modules. I have done some initial sampling of the class to pinpoint the major issues, and plan on doing an anonymous in-class clicker survey to collect a statistically significant sampling in a week or two. By the end of the semester I should be able to quantify things a bit more robustly.

Depending upon how it goes, I am seriously considering doing a section of CS 1301 as TBL in the fall, and being able to compare it directly to a few regular Lecture based CS 1301 sections offered in the same semester. [Although I actually think that the learning objectives for CS 2200 are a slightly better fit for TBL than those of CS 1301.]

I always recommend books. Scroll down for four book recommendations.

Can you make time to meet with your pastor?
Could you email, or phone-video-chat?

One of my favorite prayers is from Mark 9:24 when a parent frantically brings his son to Jesus for healing and cries out, "Lord, I believe. Help me in my unbelief!"
You are not alone in having a crisis of faith. But go through, don't stop. Do participate in the life of the church -- not just the worship service but study and service as well. Do repeat that Mark 9:24 prayer -- put it on a mental loop.

I'm also happy to keep on talking.
Now the books:

Lately I've been recommending Joshua Ryan Butler's The Pursuing God, as he re-frames the story of God interacting with people.

I also appreciate how William Young deals with belief in The Shack.

Perhaps my strongest recommendation for you at this time: Girl Meets God: On the Path to a Spiritual Life

One other recommendation, a memoir from a British satirist named Tony Hendra, Father Joe: The Man Who Saved My Soul.

> Yep, you're a loony toon.

Ah, I have been researching your brain for a while.

Here you go:

> Liberals have decreased brain volume in the right amygdala.^1 They have lesser brain function in the prefrontal cortex that suggests many of them may have hypofrontality, which is what causes laziness. Conservative score higher in conscientiousness/work-ethic. Liberals have a poor understanding of what is harmful due to their lack of brain development. This is partially what causes them to be score highest in criminality.^2
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> Social liberals in particular (social justice-types) tend to have too much empathy such that they are incapable of rationalizing their way to their own morality.^3 Instead, whoever victimizes themselves is the most moral to them.^4 If you disagree with them, it is such that "you are immoral" and they result to insult and make character assassinations. It is a fact that too much empathy leads to immorality.^5
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> A good way to fight this is to engage in moral arguments with them and prove them to be immoral instead of having cause-and-effect arguments which the right prefers to have.^6
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> [2] Liberal criminality
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> [3] Liberal vs. Conservative on empathy & morality
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> [4] PC Police and Social Attitudes
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> [5] Too much empathy leads to immoral and irrational behavior
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> [6] Debating leftists

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> The left doesn't particularly care whether their argument is logical or not. If you correct their logic, it will just annoy them and not change their opinions at all. They make decisions based off of empathy, which is not a good way on how to run a business or a country. It is often irrational. This is why it's important to engage in moral arguments with them so that they have something they can actually understand.
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> The more right you lean, the more rational and less empathetic you are. You also tend to score higher in cognitive reasoning on a crude IQ scale and lower in verbal intelligence. The opposite is true for leaning left: higher verbal intelligence and lower in cognitive reasoning.
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> This is why the right makes better business owners and it's good for us to tell them what to do for us. Liberals tend to be more creative and less conscientious, which is what makes them lazier but good "artists" and "web designers". For instance, France is a pretty terrible country but it's beautiful enough to have a lot of tourists. That's what liberals do: they appeal to what looks and sounds neat and tend to make sound bites and buzzwords.
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> This is how Obama won vs. McCain. In terms of factual argument, McCain destroyed Obama in the debates. But that doesn't matter, because Obama had open body language, wasn't holding the microphone in his mouth the whole time, Obama used nice sound bites, and he is also more attractive than raisin McCain. Obama could have spoken absolute lies the whole time while making himself look and sound like he's winning, and he still would have won. And he did, unfortunately.
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> It's no coincidence that more men are on the right and more women are on the left--as well as more men being engineers and executives, and more women being psychologists and social-verbal-artsy people.
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> This is what the right lacks. We lack heart and art, but we are smart.

You're welcome! Respect yourself and your thoughts always, don't let other people try to bring you down to 'average'. Always remember, you are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with. Don't waste your time or energy hanging out with people who don't admire.

Family and friends can either be an elevator or a cage. When they are an elevator, they bring you up when you are around them. When they are a cage, they only try to trap you, drain your energy, and bring you down, or keep you where you are. Choose wisely.

Always keep in mind, you are EXTREMELY young. You have a long, long life ahead of you. Things may look impossible now, but they are not. If I could recommend a practical book that might speak to you, I would recommend selling you without selling out.

Don't overthink things, just do them. Getting in the vicinity is more important than the final destination. Just do work, get in the vicinity, and the rest will take care of itself.

Always remember, perfect is the enemy of great.

You are so young, girl, and I really wish better things come to you.

I hope you still have other choice for your life. I know a person who is diagnosed with cancer stage 4, after several times treatment with chemical, she refused to continue going to hospital and stay at home to self-cure instead.

She said "when you got cancer that means your body is full of poisons and what you need to do right now is to detox and change the diet."

Then she detoxs everyday (several times a day) with this kind of tool: https://www.amazon.com/Premium-Enema-Non-Toxic-Phthalates-Transparent/dp/B01G6NXOA2?fbclid=IwAR2XKnOhRmae1WBMIiPxI4N8TImD1fTrWyRZEk2Bmg3SeVjCYZZviDvIvfY

Follow this kind of diet by Markus (raw vegan): https://drive.google.com/file/d/11b7d-HGGYL3uXFPA844w82eAzjnkWWiV/view?fbclid=IwAR2cvMxV2LB1RC1V_OPDWUupPMPurg0ANDLimPt0LoDfCtdKrbZ_YTUmcJ0

Doing exrcise with TRAMPOLINE and INVERTION TABLE and any exrcise that you can

Remove all chemical around your life as much as posible like shampoo, show gel, detergent, softener, toothpaste... . Use organic and natural things instead. (this seems to be the hardest part as our life is full all of these things)

Especially read more about this book to understand how food influence our whole life: https://www.amazon.com/Enzyme-Factor-Hiromi-Shinya-MD/dp/0982290039 (Enzyme Factor by Hiromi Shinya)

I know it seems ridiculous to tell you all about these things at this moment but those people are real witnesses and those things really helps that girl (It's been three years).