Reddit mentions of Frientimacy: How to Deepen Friendships for Lifelong Health and Happiness

A lot of people are saying that this behaviour from your partner is unacceptable, and I agree. I also agree that breaking up is probably the best idea.

However, the elephant in the room here is:

a. Your lack of social support and dependence on your partner

b. Your unresolved issues with your dad that pulled you into a toxic relationship in the first place

I would strongly recommend seeing a therapist, and actively working on building a social support network so you won't be totally alone. I know it's easier said than done. It will take time. If you've never been able to make many friends, I'd recommend doing some reading or taking a class on developing your social skills because it's not good for your physical and mental health to be friendless. A drama/improv class might help too. It's also problematic to be so dependent on a partner that you can't leave if they get abusive. Even if you just start by making some online friends, that's better than nothing - one of my best friends is online.

You could make friends on the following subreddits:

https://www.reddit.com/r/MakeNewFriendsHere/

https://www.reddit.com/r/InternetFriends/

https://www.reddit.com/r/hardshipmates/

I would also recommend the following books:

https://www.amazon.com/Friendships-Dont-Just-Happen-GirlFriends-ebook/dp/B07776956H/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1519107518&sr=8-1&keywords=girlfriend+circles

https://www.amazon.com/Frientimacy-Deepen-Friendships-Lifelong-Happiness-ebook/dp/B017QL9P5Q/ref=pd_sim_351_1?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=9DY83C3B2HF2HZFKD9FM

I would definitely go back to therapy if you can, as that can significantly help you in your journey of making friends. Learning to manage your mental health effectively is a key part of being able to maintain healthy and stable friendships - I know because I have a close friend with bipolar. The therapist can also provide an objective opinion if there is something you are doing that is inadvertently putting people off.

I do think bipolar can present some unique challenges, as when the person is manic they can seem very self-focused and not always be a good listener. Then when they are depressed they withdraw and you might not hear from them for months, so people can lose a lot of friends in those ups and downs. This has certainly tested my patience in friendships, especially if the person is not seeking therapy or addressing their mental health.

I would also recommend doing some reading about friendship, particularly the following books:

[Friendships Don't Just Happen by Shasta Nelson] (https://www.amazon.com/Friendships-Dont-Just-Happen-GirlFriends-ebook/dp/B07776956H/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1525093788&sr=1-1&keywords=girlfriend+circles)

[Frientimacy: How to Deepen Friendships for Lifelong Health and Happiness by Shasta Nelson] (https://www.amazon.com/Frientimacy-Deepen-Friendships-Lifelong-Happiness-ebook/dp/B017QL9P5Q/ref=pd_sim_351_1?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=VP28WVKD7VT90MKNQE6Y)