Reddit mentions of The Anti-Anxiety Workbook: Proven Strategies to Overcome Worry, Phobias, Panic, and Obsessions (The Guilford Self-Help Workbook Series)

Depression and anxiety often go hand in hand. Good work on kicking your depression!! I'm so glad your attempts didn't work out the way you planned...you really do have a lot to live for.

>I broke up with a great girl 2 years ago because of a sudden peak in confidence and I have not been in love since.

Well of course you haven't...you were battling dragons and fighting for your life. You had more important considerations and romance was not what you needed. And you're still young...20 years old, on the threshold of the world, all that life and potential stretching out in front of you. Don't make an idol out of love...love for love's sake cannot hold a candle to being in love with the right person. You'll meet her.

>I miss my friends,

So call 'em up and ask them if they want to go out for a drink or some pizza or something. You can do it! Odds are good, if you guys were/are close, they'll be happy to see that you are in a better place and will want to spend time with you.

>I miss feeling loved,

Aww, but you probably are loved - family, or friends? Most people have someone who loves them...anxiety and depression can make you feel like nobody does though.

>I miss happiness and most of all I miss not feeling anxious.

Man, I feel you. I realized I had a serious problem with anxiety when it hit me that I haven't really felt like me in a very long time - the young me, the silly goofy one who was happy and bold and not always scared of things. And I missed it. Probably a lot of us here can relate...you're not alone!

> I'm sad that everyone around me gets through life just OK

Ah, but maybe they don't. Maybe they're just good at faking it. I am. People close to me are consistently surprised when I tell them I have anxiety because I've always been good at smiling through all kinds of feelings and keeping things to myself...I'm a pretty private person. It's entirely possible that not everyone around you is sailing through life - it seems like it from your point of view, but I just betcha there are people who are struggling and hurting and relying on all sorts of things to help them get through the day.

>If I woke up one day free of my worries and self-loathing I would live my life to the fullest. But I'm afraid that that day will never be.

Therapy and self-help books can do wonders, especially if you're already on meds. Medicine is awesome and necessary when your anxiety stems from a physical cause, but it's also really helpful to rewire your thinking and the way you react to the thoughts/emotions/physical sensations/scenarios that make your anxiety rear its ugly head. Anxiety is something that you will always feel on occasion; we need it for our own good. The problem is when it's triggered inappropriately...and so much of that can be helped by your thought patterns as well as your meds. Definitely find someone to talk to, if you haven't yet, and look into a workbook. This is the one I'm currently going through, and it's been really helpful so far. I feel like I understand myself and my problems so much better, and I'm only in chapter three or four!

Best of luck...it gets better, but as my doctor explained to me, it isn't easy or quick, and you have to fight. But it's worth it - YOU are worth it - and you can do it!

There are multiple things that I do that help with my anxiety, one thing I do that you probably do too is going to my doc often. That helps! :P

Here is my favorite kitten video! :p
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNi8bK1TTX8

If you're into self-help workbooks, there's quite a few on Amazon. This one here might be okay :
https://www.amazon.com/Anti-Anxiety-Workbook-Strategies-Obsessions-Self-Help/dp/1593859937/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1480810395&sr=8-2&keywords=anti-anxiety+book

hey, i've been there. this book and perhaps a cognitive behavioural therapist is a great combo:

https://www.amazon.ca/Anti-Anxiety-Workbook-Strategies-Overcome-Obsessions/dp/1593859937/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1521741448&sr=8-1&keywords=the+anti+anxiety+workbook